What is Easy? (1/1)

[serafina19]

Author: serafina19
Title: What is Easy?
Pairing: Chloe/Oliver
Rating: G
Summary: Nothing worth having in life is easy, a lesson learned through years of living, of mistakes taken, of decisions made.
Warning: No dialogue, just analysis.  This is a concept-fic of sorts.

What is Easy?

It’s easier to hide than face the pain of seeing someone you love fall for someone else. Over, and over, and over again.

It’s easier to hide, writing the exciting tales of a world that keeps you from experiencing a life of your own.

It’s easier to hide behind your best friend, because even though he’ll always protect you, he’s the easiest person to lie to.

It’s easier to hide, keeping your emotions out of the equation because they’ve let you down enough.

It’s easier to hide yourself from having a normal life than face the consequences of trying again.

It’s easier to hide in an ivory tower than to step into reality and risk messing it up more than you already have.

It’s easier to hide by yourself than risk letting someone into your life again.

~0~

It’s easier to run from your responsibilities, knowing that they’re yours regardless, even though you know you don’t deserve them.

It’s easier to run from relationships, strings just hold people down after all.

It’s easier to run from the past than to face it straight on, see the mistakes for what they were.

It’s easier to run to the bottle.  It doesn’t talk back, and it’s replaceable when it’s finished.

It’s easier to run from the signs, until they stare you in the face.

It’s easier to run back to the familiar, a time when your life made sense, than to give yourself a chance for something new.

It’s easier to run from what’s in front of your face, until it stares back at you.

~0~

And then nothing seems easy.

~0~

It’s now harder to run away from his arms, but it’s common knowledge that guys like that don’t fall for girls like you.

It’s now harder to hide your feelings from her, from yourself, no matter how much they want to break through.

~0~

It becomes harder to hide the three words that desperately want to be spoken .

It becomes harder to hide your fear when you hear him taken from you.

~0~

It becomes harder to run, to walk, away from his life, even if you are coming back.

It becomes harder to not run after her, even though you know she has a plan.

~0~

It’s hard not running towards her, but you’re skeptical as to whether or not she’s actually there, or if she’s behind your current circumstances.

It’s hard not running towards him, but the question in his eyes only pushes you only a step forward, hoping he will understand your actions.

~0~

It’s hard to hide how you feel about seeing her here now, back in the ivory tower where it all started.

It’s hard to hide your frustration, because while you’re glad to see her, you wonder why she took so long, why she never called you.

~0~

It’s hard to hide the truth from him, as with one look, the truth spills from your lips.

It’s hard to hide the desperation in your eyes as you wait for him to forgive you.

~0~

It’s easier to run from your former insecurities as he tells you Good and kisses you just like he did before. 

But... it’s easier to run away from titles, as everything in your life has an expiration date.  From here, the clock’s just ticking.

~0~

It’s easier to let her run, it’s what you’ve been doing your entire life when it came to commitment, but instead you hand her the other half of the certificate.

It’s easier to run from a marriage neither of you remember or expected, but instead, your feet remain planted inches from his.

The truth is, nothing worth having in life is easy, a lesson learned through years of living, of mistakes taken, of decisions made.  So even though it’s easier to run or hide from your feelings, sometimes letting them out, letting them show, brings the happy ending that even you didn’t think you deserved.

~End~

Comments

[greenteam4ever.livejournal.com]

I like it :) It's all just so true.

[serafina19.livejournal.com]

Thanks! Always glad to hear that you're enjoying my stuff.

[escapist90.livejournal.com]

I like it and I love the concept. :) Thanks for sharing.

[serafina19.livejournal.com]

The concept is different, I'll admit, but I'm happy that you loved it.

[babydee1.livejournal.com]

Quick!! Someone frame this and put it on a wall!!! :-D

I love this, Sera! I had the hardest time deciding which of my icons to use for this story, because because every facet of their journey was covered and I wanted to represent them all! :-)

Lovely work, very introspective. Well done, and thanks for sharing! *hugs* :-)

[serafina19.livejournal.com]

... and to think I've had this hiding in my docs since November. I swear, I found this piece a week ago and thought Huh, maybe I should post this

All I can say is that you humble me every time you comment Dee. Thank you! *hugs you back*

... And because I'm an awful LJ friend who forgot to wish you happy birthday... consider this your belated b-day present.

[babydee1.livejournal.com]

" ... and to think I've had this hiding in my docs since November. I swear, I found this piece a week ago and thought Huh, maybe I should post this..."

You're kidding! :-O Al I can say is thanks for finally dusting it off and sharing it with the world, 'cause it's brilliant. :-)


"All I can say is that you humble me every time you comment Dee. Thank you! *hugs you back*"

You're welcome anytime, and sorry I haven't commented as much as I ought; real life is seriously kickin' my behind, even finding time to write updates is hard! :-(

... And because I'm an awful LJ friend who forgot to wish you happy birthday... consider this your belated b-day present."

Aw, Sera!!! *smishes you* I'm speechless with squee...thank you so much!!! :-D

you do know what you've done, though, don't you? I'm tempted to pen little drabbles to go with each of those bullet points raised. I'm trying to stick to a schedule here, woman, stop luring me to break protocol!!! :-D

Seriously, thank you so much...it's a huge honour. :-)

[serafina19.livejournal.com]

Aww.... I'm so glad you enjoyed it that much. Trust me, I get the real life kicking behind thing. I'm so behind my update schedule. And that's including a story that on hiatus until my beta's schedule clears up (because I refuse to continue without her).

You know what you've done though? Now you've got the idea in my head, and I'm just as big as a sequel/spin-off person as you (I think?). *chuckle* Who knows? Maybe we'll split these in half; combine and conquer.

Seriously, thank you so much...it's a huge honour. :-)

It's my pleasure Dee. Thanks again! *cuddles*

[kachica.livejournal.com]

really nice one! Great job, Sera! I enjoyed it! :D

[serafina19.livejournal.com]

Thanks Keiko!

[hednin.livejournal.com]

It's a very good fiction¡ I love how you built the pace in the history. It's different but I like it.

[serafina19.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I admit, I was a little worried it'd be too different, but I'm glad you enjoyed the piece.

[mrsoqueen.livejournal.com]

I love this story so much!! It was beautifully written, you did such an awesome job!

[serafina19.livejournal.com]

Thanks you! I appreciate the comment so much, so thanks for taking the time.

[chlollifan84.livejournal.com]

Wonderful!! I love this concept and the way you managed to resume their story so well. It is brilliant!

[serafina19.livejournal.com]

I stumbled onto the concept by accident, and I wasn't sure how people would take to it, but I'm glad you liked it! Thanks for the comment.