Never Say Never (3/12)

[serafina19]

Title: Never Say Never
Fandom: Smallville
Pairing: Chloe/Oliver (Clark/Lois)
Genre: Romance/Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: Lois tells Oliver about her engagement to Clark, which re-awakens his memories of his own rejected proposal.  The scars of his relationship with Chloe will always be there... but will they heal?
Warning: This takes 5 years after the events of season 9, so there may be some minor spoilers.
Disclaimer: I own nothing.  Chapter title inspired "All I need" by Within Temptation

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Chapter 3: Can you still see the heart of me?

I walked up to the main computer and stared at the broken cell phone that lay behind the keyboard. Everyone asked me what it was doing there, it was useless, or so they thought. It may not be functional, but it served a purpose; a symbol for that day.

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He was mad, not that I blamed him, but I couldn't continue to be this way with him. I just hoped that we could talk about it later and move on.

My phone rang. Vic? Why was he calling me instead of using the communicator?

"Vic? What's up?"

"It's AC. Clark got him to the hospital, but the diagnosis isn't good."

I put my hand up to my mouth in shock. "What happened?"

"I don't know. We separated for only a moment I swear. "

"Don't beat yourself up. I'll be right there."

"We're just getting there ourselves, so there's no hurry." He paused for a moment. "You wouldn't happen to know what happened to Oliver, would you?"

I shook my head and then realized that he couldn't see it. "He's not with you?"

"I haven't seen him, and Bart did a full sweep of the place. Did he ever check in after leaving Watchtower?"

That's when I saw an earpiece at the front table. I walked over to it and picked it up. "Vic... he..."

"You turned him down?"

"How did you..."

"Who else was he going to tell? You deal with him, and then come visit, okay? "

I hung my head. "He won't want to talk to me Vic. I'm not sure that we will be able to get past this."

"Well, you won't standing at Watchtower. At least go talk to him. Bye."

I hung up and immediately called Oliver's number. Voicemail.

"Okay, so I know I'm probably the last person you want to talk to right now, but it's AC. He's in critical condition at the hospital and the guys were worried that you never checked in. You don't have to call me back, but at least go visit."

There. This way gives him space and he'll get a chance to see AC.

I looked up after I hung up and saw Dinah with a worried look on her face. I knew what was going through her mind.

"Is he going to be alright?"

"I don't know; Vic didn't give me details."

"I... Chloe... he can't..."

"Stop." I walked up to Dinah and gave her a hug. "I know. You hide it well, but I guess it's a girl thing to be able to see beneath your shell."

"I learned from the best."

"Um..."

She ignored me and continued as she wiped the tears from her eyes. "You know that you'll have to tell him how much he means to you one of these days. He's a great guy Chloe, and it's clear that you love him."

I tried to change the subject. "Even if he's unconscious he deserves the truth."

"No, we're not like you and Oliver. Sure, we've suffered a couple bumps and bruises, but never together. We don't have that mutual understanding of each other."

So much for that I guess, it was time to be honest. "Yeah, about that..."

"What?"

"Dinah, Oliver and I..."

"You broke up?"

"I don't know, he proposed and I freaked out. I asked him what would happen if I wasn't ever ready and he left."

"Remember when he was abducted and you blurted those three little words? You were a mess for months! Why the change of heart?"

"I... just didn't want to lose him."

"So how does sending him away help?"

"We go back to being colleagues and he stays safe."

"Are you aware of how ridiculous that sounds? Forget the eventual scenarios, Chloe; you might have just lost him now."

I snapped my head back up to look at her.

"Yeah, stop playing with your emotions Chloe. Go, go get him and talk about this before he does something you'll both regret. I'll get Bart to pick me up."

"Think about what I said okay?" I walked out of Watchtower and headed down in the elevator.

Dinah was right. What was I so afraid of? On the positive side, I technically didn't give him an answer; I just walked my way around it.

I dialled his number again, hoping he'd answer. Nope, still voicemail.

"Oliver, please talk to me. I... have to tell you something." Come on Oliver, what was going on? I went up to the penthouse and opened the door with my key, but there was nothing, no sign of life, let alone a sign of him.

I was about to call him again when I heard buzzing behind me. There on a bar stool, was Oliver's phone. It was Bart.

"Hey Bart, it's Chloe."

"Hey 'licious, you guys make up yet?"

"He's not at the hospital?"

"Dinah said you went to talk to him."

I ran to his bedroom and started pulling out drawers. Each one was almost empty. I started crying and shook my head. He wouldn't... he didn't...

"Chloe, you alright?"

"He's gone Bart." I screamed and threw the phone on the ground and crumbled to the floor covering my face with my hands.

He was gone.

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AC made a full recovery and he and Dinah took it slow before becoming the league's new power couple. However, we all knew the league wasn't the same without Oliver. Clark tried out his leadership skills, but we all knew he was better solo.

That cell phone was everything I had of his, except for the penthouse and the Green Arrow gear, but it wasn't the same without him. The phone reminded me of my mistake, and it was a reminder of what happened when I opened my heart to someone. Whenever that happened, someone would be crushed, literally or figuratively. I couldn't let that happen again. I have to face him, but I won't let him get to me again.

I picked up the phone and dropped it in the garbage can. It was time to move on from that incident. It was time to forget about my relationship with Oliver Queen. 



Chapter 4
 

Comments

[chlollie-4ever.livejournal.com]

I'm realy loving this story... can't wait for next chapter

[serafina19.livejournal.com]

Wow... thanks for all of your comments, it means a lot. I'm hoping to have the next chapter up within the next couple of days

[serafina19.livejournal.com]

Hopefully it was more of a twist than a plot hole because I've found a couple in upcoming chapters that I might have to tweak the storyline in order to fix.

Thanks as always for your feedback.

[ihearttvsnark.livejournal.com]

Oh, wow. That was intense. I feel bad for Chloe. I know she's insecure and I'm glad Dinah tried to set her straight and make her see that she was making a mistake. I can't believe Ollie just left. I know she hurt him, but...*sigh* The angst. It made me sad that she threw away the phone at the end.

Great job, looking forward to more.

[serafina19.livejournal.com]

*Sigh* indeed.

I'm glad you thought it was intense because having Within Temptation on loop while writing does things to your brain.

I thought about her holding onto the phone but figured it was better (for the angst-building I mean) if she didn't.